TT - Chapter 4: Confession

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Chapter 4: Confession</i>

Beast Boy and Raven sat at the table, eating their pizza. They glanced at each other, smiling, whenever their eyes happened to meet. They finished their meals around the same time and accidentally locked in a strange gaze. Raven stopped and looked away when she started thinking about what Beast Boy was going to say. Not only did she feel confused and afraid but she also felt embarrassed at herself that she was hoping he would say what she thought he was going to.

They were silent for a few minutes. Beast Boy looked down at the empty plate then back at Raven to smile at her. She noticed the smile from out of the corner of her eye and, without looking at him out of some type of fear, “Well Beast Boy… What did you want to talk about?” She turned her head towards him but just when she was about to look into his eyes she quickly shifted them somewhere else, “You…made it sound like It was serious…” She started to slowly outline his body, avoiding his eyes.

Beast Boy started to avoid looking at Raven's eyes as well, looking at the table and floor, “Yeah… I guess It is serious…” He looked back towards her eyes with another smile and she finally returned the gaze along with a small smile of hers. That smile nearly made him the happiest teenager in the city for as long as it lasted.

They sat there lost in each other’s eyes until they both started to show signs of blushing then both looked to their left quickly, “… … Are you gonna tell me or are you waiting for me to guess?” She said to him, cracking a smirk, trying to be a little more sarcastic than insulting to calm both of them down.

“I am, just…give me a second to figure out what I’m tryin’ to say…” Beast Boy closed his eyes and faced the floor between him and Raven as she looked back towards him. He looked up and opened his eyes and locked himself on those beautiful eyes again. He smiled and she started to blush, “Well Raven… I wanted to tell you…” He started to blush and looked around for a second, for some sort of refuge, before returning to Ravens eyes, “That… I mean lately I’ve… That I’ve… … …” His heart was beating a mile a minute.

Raven moved herself closer to him so she wouldn’t miss anything he said, “That you’ve…?” She insistent, becoming anxious. Her heart started to beat almost as fast as Beast Boy's in anticipation.

“That I’ve… I mean I think I…” He closed his eyes tight, fighting to get the words out, facing the ground again. Then, looking back up at Raven quickly and with passion in his eyes he spoke louder, “I think I love you Raven!” Both of their hearts felt like they stopped and tried to jump up their throat. They locked in another stare, blushing but neither of them looking away, neither of them wanted to look away.

Beast Boy spoke a few seconds later in what seemed like hours of bliss just staring into her eyes, “That’s… That’s It Raven… … That’s It…” Still locked in her eyes he started to lean closer to Raven.

She stayed backed her head away slightly, knowing what he was doing, and said with a kindness in her voice she didn't even know she had, “Beast B--- … Gar … I don’t know if we can... I mean I don't even know if I---”

It was clear to Beast Boy that she was attempting to hide her emotions yet again, he cut her off, “I didn’t know if I did either… I wasn’t totally sure until this morning… When I saw you shining in the sunlight, reading your book… You're beautiful Raven. You’re shining even now, shining in my eyes…” He reached out with his hand cupped her cheek in it, his eyes started to water at how happy he was. Raven felt nothing but love for him when he said those words.

She put her own hand over his, and gave it a gentle squeeze. A sign to herself that she was letting her emotions out, “Gar… … … I think… … I think I…” She started to lean towards him, he started to lean more towards her, “You think you…?” They leaned even closer to each other to fill in the short gap between them, he started to slowly close his eyes, “I think I lo…lo--” She started to slowly close her eyes as well. Their lips were close enough to feel each other’s breathing, then close enough to feel the warmth of each other's lips radiating off.

She threw Beast Boys hand off her face and quickly got out of her seat, “I can’t!” She said with a blushing face and teary eyes, she quickly turned and started to run away when she felt that shock again, that shock in her hand traveling quicker this time to her chest.

Beast Boy cried the words out as he stood up, his hand grasped tightly but tenderly around hers, “You Can Raven… I know you feel it the same as I do! That’s why every time we touch, whether I’m helping you up when you get knocked down or when I’m trying to stop you from leaving… That’s why we feel this… this feeling in our hearts.”

Ravens heart jumped again at the fact that Beast Boy shared with her whatever that feeling was. She even felt Beast Boy’s heart jump back and she knew he felt hers to begin with. Raven's teary eyes turned into sobbing ones, “Gar you don’t understand… I can’t, it’s too--- ”

“Dangerous?" stopping her before she started, "I’m not afraid of your emotions,” He started to perk up a little, sounding almost cheerful, “I’m not afraid of your anger ‘cause I know I’ll be there to calm you down, I’m not afraid of your fear ‘cause I know I’ll be there to hold you through it, I’m not afraid of your hatred ‘cause I know I’ll be there to turn it around, I’m not afraid of your sadness ‘cause I know I’ll be there to make you smile, and I’m not afraid of your love… ‘Cause … 'Cause I know what I want now...”

She turned to look at him, he was smiling with his own shine around him now. She wanted to hold him close to her, close to her heart, she wanted to tell him everything she felt. She closed her eyes tightly, making the tears run faster, and lunged at him hugging him tightly like she was never letting go of him. He hugged her back with the same tightness, the tears still in both of their eyes, “I’m… I’m sorry Gar!” She let go, breaking free of his hug and flying off before Beast Boy had a chance to grab hold again.

“Raven… … …” His eyes widened as he watched her fly away. There weren't a lot of people there but the few who were stared at him. But it didn't matter to him, nothing really mattered right now in his confused state of sudden depression. He looked down at the ground in front of him where some of Raven’s tears fell only to notice his own tears falling into them. He closed his eyes and walked back to his chair. He looked down at the empty plate, trying to figure out what he was supposed to do.

Raven was trying to wipe the tears from her eyes on her way back to the Tower but the they just kept flowing, “I can’t I can’t I can’t,” She kept repeating to herself, sounding like she was trying to convince herself then said honestly, “… I can’t risk it...  I can't lose him…” When she landed on the Tower’s roof she didn’t want the others to see her running through the hallways with a still teary face, she phased herself through the roof straight down to her room. She collapsed on her bed, grasping her pillow close to her body, the tears still flowing and a the pain of sadness starting to set it.

Beast Boy started to stare at the Tower as he talked to himself, “I love her… And I know deep down she really loves me…" He felt like there was a hole in his chest, "But I don’t think there’s anything else I can do...” He sobbed a little heavier, crossing his arms on the table and settling his head into them for a long while.

Some time later he decided to fly back to the Tower. The sun was getting close to setting when he landed on the roof and sat himself down on the edge.